first rule: never talk about flight club

posted: Monday, march 10, 2008

its been two days after you left for Florida and I'm now experiencing at first hand how its like to be without you. Ive been idle at the same time reckless. Ive been brainstorming about ideas that would let me forget about you without letting you go.Frankly I have not been myself lately although Ive been doing my usual daily routine (wake up, eat, pc, etc..) minus the waiting for that nostalgic sound of the tricycle when your about arrive.. everything feels like it does'nt mean anything as cliche as it sounds, but damn it.. it is true. Iam a walking stiff, it seems that you leaving, sucked the life out of me and Im desperately trying to get back on my feet again.

"That was naughty blow.. right on the money!"

remember the fire in the bed room?


THINGS THAT IVE BEEN BRAINSTORMING ABOUT:

• start painting again.. i almost forgot that im an artist
• get a fucking job!
• take the fucking test!
• get into a photography, graphics design, art workshop or at least learn back something i forgot i could do in the first place
• webcam!
• SKATEBOARD!
• how to get to florida without really buying a ticket
  

well it just been two days and i dont think 3 months is gonna be a friendly one. Ive been praying and still praying to God that He'll guide me through this.. Im weak, yes i know. I have been dependent to people for happiness, courage, warmth and love and now that it has come to this...

*which i was expecting right after we met*

it has been really HARD

I miss you


words never really say the things you want to say when your amplified. It sickens me that Im bounded by this feeble developed English words. Its constricting, and i fucking hate it..
i hate it that i cant make you feel what i really feel right now and the sad part is i cant do jack! and wont be able to do jack for 3 months about it..

*wall punch x3*

im really missing you right now, i wish could write my tears so this wont hurt too much

Ive tried talking to your pictures that Ive taken but they wont answer, i should've talked to my sketches.

hopefully soon ill be getting my money coz i sold my goddamn track shoes that goes for almost 5k for a soft P2500.gaah! webcaman na my loves! :)

atleast ill get to see her and talk to her on the net,but nothing beats the real thing...

right mateys?

ay ay captain!

AN ALMOST SHORT TERM GOAL: start being optimistic this week

~I'll be looking forward to that